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δύναμη- Rewired

The first word is a greek translation of strength. I came across this word this last year as I prepared a short devo. I had no idea that I would soon be tested on the topic in which I had to discuss. It’s interesting how that happens. The topic I specifically spoke about was even though… meaning even though things happen God is able. I think when I first spoke about it I didn’t understand it as much as I understand it today. See the rewired part of this post comes from what God is able to do if you ask him. I always want to caution people that prayer is powerful and to be careful what you pray for. Over the last two year I prayed for wholeness, and for barriers to be broken. Today I find God using me in ways I never thought possible, restoring places I thought were long broken. I’ve learned more tangibly what it’s like to trust God even though things around you can convince you not to.  I’ve had to seek comfort in the greatest comforter of all and feel rested and hopeful. That’s something I never had before but I became hopeful the day I asked him for strength and began to embrace who I am made to be. The Rewired process is so important to me and growth with God because its changing everything I’ve ever known to be true and replacing it with his truth. I remember process for me I was worshipping when I began to feel unworthy of worshipping God. I had to fight that feeling because it kept me from worshiping. I remember listening to the lyrics and really pressing into the meaning proclaiming God’s goodness and my identity in him.  Finding her strength is about finding her identity in Christ and allowing the rewire to slowly happen. I am still working on the set up of the blog but Finding Her Dýnami is really just a love story about how God seriously goes to places for you and with you. I don’t have a roadmap entirely but I do have tips on how to let God in more when you have a difficult time doing it for whatever reason. Read if you want. I just promise you that I’ll always be honest and transparent.

 

Stolen Moments

I looked forward to you all week.

But you rob me of my moments

And your timing sucks all my energy away

You leave me laying in bed.

Despite my best efforts to leave you make me stay.

My body curled up , head burrowed into my arms.

I fall asleep yet again with a heavy heart.

Feelings of loneliness hit my throughout the day.

I try to push through it but often times that version of me is clearly in auto-pilot not capturing anything you said.

Trying to maintain I push myself through it . Losing my sense of self along the way.

I forget to be mindful which robs me of the present.

Falling short of unrealistic expectations that you’d just go away.

It’s okay for me to reflect in this way.

Because empowered minds see.

They see the light, they see their strength.

They see they are able to despite the pain .